Take it All Away

You have to listen to the song. Before, after or during your reading of the post. If you can't listen then mute it and read the lyrics.

dear Effect,

you are so disproportionate 

you snuck up behind me,

you stabbed my back.

you haunt my quiet.

you overthrow peace.

lightly I speak, heavy my heart.

 I scream in silence 

I don’t want the sympathy

I don’t need them to understand

I just want this demon out of me

I am in a cage, scratching to get out.

poison escapes my eyes

oxygen is trapped in my lungs

my eyes are dry, my soul 

screams out

you are begging me to roll over

enticing me to let lie

but I see through your fake eyes

I am frantically mustering

searching the deep

crying out with 

gut wrenching

take it all away

you will entreat

I will refuse

you have died

sincerely,

____________

This is significantly darker than the last several post. But is a real emotion with a song that Jesus has put in my heart for weeks in advance, for this purpose. This is my reminder of a refusal to submit to darkness, because all I need to do is cry out.

 I debated whether or not to post this, but ultimately decided that public posting would help keep me accountable to the manifesto in the last three lines of the poem, and maybe Jesus can use it to help others in a struggle.